Leaves, Leaves, and More Leaves

Changes

I dislike fall and winter. I do not enjoy the cold whatsoever. Probably because I am a spring baby. The only thing I enjoy of fall, are the leaves. The colors they change into are so vibrant. Ranging from deep reds to violet purples to an umber orange until they finally detach themselves from where they've been for the last several months.They remind me of life in a way. The way in order to grow you must fall. In other words when you're in tough situations, just know that when you get through it you will grow as an individual. Not only is it the color, but the motion of the leaves falling is also a beautiful sight. When I watch them fall, it's as if they are falling in slow motion. It's like im literally watching time go by. If time was an object it would be the leaves of trees. But it's not only the appearance. The most satisfying thing about the leaves once they fall is the crunch of the dried leaves when you step on them. The louder the crunch, the bigger my smile is. Onto another topic is my dog. Watching him sleep is possibly the cutest thing on the planet. He seems so content. He sleeps right next to my head when it's time for bed and even rolls onto his back to sleep at times. I wonder what he dreams about. He essentially is an old man for whom I adore. He snores and he doesn't show much change to when he is awake because I have a theory that he was a cat in another lifetime. He's very lazy, sleeps 60% of the day and does not play with toys. I consider him very laid back and the perfect dog for me because he suits my personality.

Loud Noises

Busy Place

I never enjoyed being in places with a multitude of people. Felt judged, crowded, and not comfortable. In fact, the thought of going to the mall does not excite me. And yes I know I am a 16 year old teenage girl. Walking around back and forth from one side of the mall to the other again and again until you find what you're looking for at a good price vs snuggling up with your dog and watching episodes of The Office (US) on Netflix. Now tell me which one sounds more appealing. However, I do enjoy new clothes... so you gotta do what you gotta do. Recently, my friend dragged me to the mall with her(because unlike me, she's a normal teenage girl who enjoys shopping). Knowing I wasn't going to buy anything, I spent a lot of time observing my surroundings. I followed her around while she'd ask my opinion of different clothing. I was used to doing so, so it didn't bother me. As 20 minutes passed, I was getting severely bored. So, I sat in one of the chairs outside the stores and I began to watch people as they did their own shopping. Everyone was different. The first person that caught my attention was a man of about 6 feet(maybe). He had a business suit on and had a bluetooth in his ear. He was sitting in a chair outside one of the many stores and looked focussed as his eyes were glued to his iphone. Probably looking at statistics, or whatever businessmen do. He looked like he had underlying stress problems. He seemed to be the type to always be busy and finally got the chance to take a break. He looked successful by the way he carried himself(suit,well-groomed,nice watch), but one could think he's lonely due to the fact he had no wedding ring and he was in his late 30's. The next person I noticed was a large woman with a young boy who looked to be the age of 7(presumably her son). The boy had a frown on his face by the way he was dragging his feet you could tell he did not want to be there. In his defense, neither did I. The woman also had a frown on her face, but she looked more irritated than sad. She looked like a stay-home mom who lived in an unhappy marriage and that kind of saddened me. The fourth person was a teenage boy and his girlfriend (they were holding hands). She was very pretty and he was handsome. They looked happy together but as a teenage girl herself with her own boyfriend, I can imagine they have their issues from time to time. She appeared attached to him by how closely they walked. Lastly was a goth girl. She wore dark clothing, heavy black makeup, and had the stereotypical jewelry to go along with it. Although the stereotype was that goth people are "vicious" and "people you don't want to mess with", this girl looked kind as she'd laugh with friends of similar appearance. Finally my friend was done and we could go home. On the way home, I wondered if people looked at me that deeply observant.

Peaceful Serenity

Meditation

Meditation takes on many different forms. Could be as simple as listening to your favorite song whist lying in bed or playing a favorite sport. There's no wrong way to meditate. The definition of meditation is: The action or practice of meditating. However, the similes the word possesses are:Contemplation,thought, thinking, musing,pondering, and reflection. Nature has always been a sacred place of mine from a young age. When I was 5, I would wake up at nine in the morning and go straight outside after making myself (as well as a mess) a bowl of cheerios. I would smell the  crisp morning air as I'd walk around the corner of my house in my backyard to do what I always did. Which was lift up a wooden plank that had been always on the ground stuck in place in the mud between grass. It was an odd habit, don't get me wrong, but there  was always a sense of unfinished business if I had not lifted up the board. What was under the board you may ask? Well, as gross as it sounds there were insects of all kinds. Roly polies, centipedes, beetles, and my favorite: Earthworms. I was so amazed by these creature who dig tunnels underground. Always asking myself questions like: How do they get through the dirt? How do they even move, they have no legs! To my amusement, I later found out that they eat the dirt and then dispose of it out the other end. Being alone outside.. it was like I was in my own little world. I consider it my form of meditation because I am very soothed by the sounds of nature and exploring. I haven't been able to go out in nature and reminisce on my childish ways. Recently though, I did. The feelings of being a 5 year old all came back to me at once and filled me with joy. Hearing the sounds of the birds, and the colors of nature make you feel like you've freed yourself from society. Even tripping on rocks, and branches could never upset me. Seeing the dew on plants and examining them meticulously. It's all very revigorating. The only thing I longed for was a nice big tree to climb and continue to breathe in my surroundings. I am forever thankful to know there is a place to get away from my everyday, routine life.